Is maths a chore or a natural interest to you?

I'll hold my hands up, it is taking my life over by storm. If I've had a lie in I'll be asking the question, how many hours of maths could I have got done if I woke up earlier? I turn up to work with Euclid's propositions written on paper in my pocket to memorize because again I feel time was wasted not doing maths. I'm in a bullsh*t job, hardly see anyone anymore, family frequency has broken down to the point of non-existence and all I care about is getting my maths done. And to be quite honest, unless you teach maths there's not a lot in it for you apart from your own benefit.

Please express your opinion.