This is perhaps something that you don't hear very often (although would be some comfort to me if you have felt like this before). I've been studying mathematics for around 4 years now. At first, I enjoyed it - the concepts were explained, or at least easy enough to work out what they were getting at - there was enough intuition and motivation to me to see the point in why we are studying what we are. But now I feel completely different - I mainly study functional analysis now, and I find that most textbooks I come across are written "definition, lemma, proof, theorem, proof, end of chapter" - with little or no motivation. I am getting bored, I am seeing no reason why I should pick up a book any more other than the times that I have to. I just feel stupid when I tell someone I am interested in analysis, and yet I can't even tell you why Banach started looking at complete normed spaces (for them then to be named Banach spaces afterwards) because I seem to have to learn everything in some sort of backwards fashion.
Can someone give me some advice here?
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